Samwise

Dear Sam,

It's been two months since our last trip together. In the wee hours before dawn, I settled you into the car's front seat, my faithful wingman, Captain Sammydawg. You, usually butt and tail wagging, always loved running to the car after you saw suitcases by the back door. You would jump into the seat, let me buckle you in, and then look around as if to say, "Where to now?!" This time you were fading.

We started life together on my 50th birthday. I had wanted a beagle for a long time, and the local Humane Society had two. A little girl wanted the other, so by default, you became mine. By default, but not by chance. We came home, and boy, were you excited about being home. You raced around the house and then let me know you considered yourself a lap dog and that I should too. Whenever and wherever I sat, you came slowly creeping onto my lap, first one paw, then another, then your whole self, looking into my eyes with that adoring gaze. I didn't deserve that gaze, but you thought I did.

We had a few of the everyday challenges, but we settled quickly. You were my pet, I was your owner, and life was tied up neatly. I gave you the usual pet care, and you would do cute or not-so-cute dog things.

Then my life caught up with me, beat me, and left me sobbing on the floor. And there you found me, curled yourself around me, sighed deeply, and didn't leave. I realized then, at least to you, we were never pet and owner. I simply belong to you. I was yours to care for. The adoring gaze tried to tell me, but I had been too blind to see.

In the following years, I watched you and saw how mealtimes were always a reason for a party. Warm spring days were meant for surveying your kingdom from the open patio door and then a long nap in the sun. Snow was to be snuffled and tossed. You considered every stranger a friend you hadn't met yet and who desperately needed your affection. Mornings were for snuggling and wrestling, evenings for cuddling on the sofa and snoring softly. Popcorn was for sharing, and you made sure you were never more than a few feet from me for no reason other than wanting to be there.

And no one greeted me home like you. I was told you would stand by the door and whine when I left. And I know that when I came home, you did the same. It always sounded like, "Hurry up and open the door! I've missed you!"

My days now are spent recognizing how you wove our lives together with each moment of every day. In all of this, Samwise, you knew, as your namesake did, that presence is enough, there are joys amid sorrows, and being faithful to the task at hand is one of the greatest gifts we can give one another. And you gave them abundantly. This is how life is well lived.

So as that last trip ended, I laid you in a small grave that holds you. Holds a gentle, kind heart with strength so immense it wrapped all who met you in delight that lifted anyone vulnerable enough to allow it. I am not a theologian, but I am told that God will restore and renew all creation. I'm not ashamed to admit that I hope that includes you, my friend I named Samwise. Until then, rest.

Wood between the Worlds

     My dad began painting a few years ago and has since gifted us with his handiwork. About a year ago, he gave me the choice of a few others he had on hand and I immediately knew which one I wanted. This one.
     When I was growing up, in the providence of our Maker, I lived in a small 3 bedroom home situated  at the edge of our town. And next to that home were acres and acres of meadows, wooded areas, creeks, streams, and even a wild strawberry patch. There was one place that stood out and to this day still does, and this painting reminds me of that spot. It was still, quiet, peaceful, and green with life. A place, as the narrator in The Magician's Nephew described, where "The trees grew close together and were so leafy that he could get no glimpse of the sky. All the light was green light that came through the leaves: but there must have been a very strong sun overhead, for this green daylight was bright and warm. It was the quietest wood you could possibly imagine. ...This wood was very much alive. ...'It was a rich place...'"

30 Days of Thankfulness 9

Thankful for good girlfriends, both recent and past.

Blessed indeed!

Check out my two gals' blogs. Links to the side. They are a perfect example of God's unmerited favor. I have done nothing to deserve having these two delightful young ladies in my life. The joy and "embarrassment of riches" they bring to my life is inestimable.

Dad's Christmas present was this

I used it to buy thisTomorrow I will use it to make this

Butternut Apple Soup